faithful.

Remembering how faithful God is is truly a struggle for me.

I am constantly disappointed in every little let down I edure.
I am saddened by the thought of never achieving what I dream.
I am baffled that I, so often, forget how good He is.

My life, lately, has been a series of really high highs and really low lows. There has been no in between at all.

I am also in a constant state of questioning what God wants for me. (As if I know what I need... That is laughable!)

God knows the desires of our hearts.
Yet, why do I feel that mine get smashed every month, every turned in project, every paper turned in, etc.

I have been leading an extremely confused life, and yet, the answer is so simple.
Trust what I know to be true.
I know God's plans are grand.
I know God is not hurting me -- my expectations are hurting me.
I know God's love is far greater and much more satisfying than constantly feeling loved by people.
I know that God is faithful.