Being a mom has always been my ultimate goal in life. I'm not sure whether it was because my mom was and is so wonderful or if I was just born with a strong maternal instinct, but I know that my sole purpose on Earth is to mother children.
Queue the stress of everyone around me having sweet babes or learning the great news that they soon will have a precious child of their own.
I can't say for certain that Brandon and I are in a season of bringing a babe into the equation, but that doesn't stop me from so strongly desiring that for us.
Without going into too much detail, it has become apparent that God is telling us to wait (or rather providing us with no other option but to wait). And let me tell you, that is the most disheartening bad painful reminder I have ever experienced. Right now, we are in a place of realizing that no matter what we do, it is ultimately in God's hands. (Tough, but needed reminder)
Seasons such as this are tough. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally. I am drained.
And I, honestly, could not be more thankful for this season.
I am in need of the reminder that God will always be in control.
I am in need of being broken of desiring things for selfish reasons.
I am not a mom.
Not yet.
And God is still just as good as he was when we hadn't had babes on the brain.
The LORD is righteous in all his ways and faithful in all he does.
Psalm 145:17
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