Lately, I have been realizing that nothing I do has ever been on my own. Jesus is always there, and he provides wonderful friends who are going through similar situations. We really are never alone. He has been teaching me so much about what that means, as well.
Any other day, I would be down on myself for not really knowing if I want to continue my major or even continue studying at Tech, but today is different--today I put aside all of my wants for myself and left everything up to God. Do I have an answer yet? No, but I put all of my faith in Him. I wasn't afraid to ask Him a question that doesn't have a definite yes or no answer. My head is literally in a million different places with what I could do; it goes something like this:
Housing and Design... Eh... Stop going to Tech... No... Interdisciplinary Studies?? Maybe... Go back to Elementary Ed?? So much longer in school! By the end of all of that, I get so overwhelmed. Just typing it made me nervous, so I'm not dealing with it anymore... at least not until Jesus says it is time to make a decision.
Also, I have been challenged to not go into a "hole of isolation", which I do so easily. I withdraw myself from life more than I would like to admit. So after a conversation Saturday, I have been making it a point to put myself out there, and you know what?? I have discovered that I have multiple friends who are just like me--they just need someone to encourage them, I have a wonderful community of believers surrounding me, school isn't the most important thing in life, and friendships can begin at any time, anywhere.
God is working in me. I can feel it. I feel something huge happening soon. I just can't put my finger on it just yet.
Happy (rainy) Tuesday, friends!
I hope you feel God working in your lives.